I used to live my life half alive. What does that mean you may be asking yourself. Well, I will tell you. Living half alive means that you are living your life to barely any of its potential. You are breathing in and out each day of your life but you are NEVER stopping to smell the roses. You NEVER make goals. You NEVER pamper to your passions {you hardly even know what your passions are.} It is a life with a fair amount of Depression. It is a life full of Jealousy at everyone around you who has a life you wish you had. It is a life full of longing for more. It is a life filled with the statement: “When _______ happens then I will be happy.”
Only to realize that when ______ happens it isn’t enough to make you happy.
Living half alive is a life where you don't understand life. A life where you don't know yourself. Where you don't know and don't acknowledge your dreams. A life where you have no idea what self esteem is and you wonder how it is obtained. A life where events can bring you temporary happiness but your life lacks a fullness of joy. This is a life I knew all too well.
One day, some thing one changed me.
Although I don't think I can boil it down to just one day, I can boil it down to just one event. I was living my life half alive, more miserable than I had ever been in my life.I was living my life half alive as described above and to top it off The BF and I had just broken up. The BF just dumped me.
That left the perfect recipe for misery.
That left the perfect recipe for misery.
I was living my miserable little life when it dawned on me that radio was so boring. They play the same songs EVERY DAY several times a day. It was getting ridiculous. All my favorite stations were annoying the heck out of me. Solution I found: Talk Radio. It is NEVER the same, there is always something unique and different on talk radio. In my city there was only 1 talk radio station that I was aware of. I flipped the radio and just started listening. News, Politics, Current and Local issues being debated. The works. I was entertained once more. During my normal daily routine I listened to the same lineup. On that line up just happened to be a radio host that I had never heard of before. (Now that I understand more who she is I am shocked that I’d never heard of her before.) Dr. Laura Schlessinger. At first, she was just the voice on the radio. I quickly came to learn what millions of Americans already knew, which is that she is BLUNT and OPINIONATED. But wow was it funny to hear her chew out the pathetic callers. At least that is what I thought from the beginning: Dr. Laura is pure entertainment.
Soon though, through her words of advice I started to see the mistakes I had made in my life and the unhappiness they had brought me.
I started to see the mistakes I had made with my boyfriend and the relationship that we had.
I started to see that the life I was living was not one that I was excited about.
Not one that I woke up every morning excited to experience.
It was not a life that was being lived to its full potential.
And the best part was that not only did she paint a clear picture for me of what was wrong in my life, she painted a CRYSTAL CLEAR picture of how to fix it. Well, over the past 2 years now, the 2 years since I have found and absorbed so much of her advice, I did fix my life. I am fixing my life. My life is now one that I rejoice in. It is now a life that I am proud of. It is now a life that is rooted in true and lasting happiness.
I get life now.
The lessons that woman has taught me about life are lessons that no parent, mentor, teacher, leader, friend, or any other person I've ever known has ever been able to teach me. The lessons that she has taught me have inspired me to grow. They have inspired me to give. They have inspired me to learn. They have inspired me to be stronger. They have inspired me to live life to its full potential.
Along with all of these lessons that I have learned from her, she has assisted to root some deep political opinions in me (opinions that I did not just adopt at face value but opinions that I have studied and come to my own conclusions concerning). The beginning of this blog has a few more “soap box” postings than I care for that were stemmed from those political opinions. As I was growing into my style that is just what seemed to come out. Since coming to my own though, I hope that I can transition this blog into a place where I can share with others what I have learned about life. How I have overcome the half alive existence to a full and enriching one. This blog is a place I hope I can share honestly my hard work to overcome my weaknesses. A place where we can grow together. A place where we can learn life’s greatest lessons. Welcome.
